Friday, Sept. 27, 2002 7:15 A.M.
Bad Cosmic, bad, bad, bad! Morning. You notice, I presume, that there is no "Good" in front of "Morning". That is because, I BLEW IT!! I went to the doctor yesterday and he has changed my surgery from the 4th to the 9th. Scheduling problem. That's not why I blew it. I blew it because I forgot one of the cardinal laws about quitting smoking. I went to Bingo last night. Smokers to my left,
smokers to my right
Cigerettes lying all around
I really tried to fight. My will power crumbled
and I was filled with sorrow.
I am not throwing in the towel
I'll start again tomorrow. Yup folks, all shot. I am not going to beat myself up over it. I am giving myself today to regroup. I will reset my silky thingy tonight and pick up again in the morning. There is no need to comment. I know it was stupid and weak and not condusive to my overall well-being, but hey! I am human. Nobody said this would be easy.I think what really pisses me off is that I didn't even
win! I am not telling anyone outside of Hubby about this in real life because I don't need to hear about it from my family or co-workers. Especially my boss lady. She would just jump on the chance to spend an hour on a lecture to me like I was a 3 year old child. Don't need it. I feel enough like s**t already. Oh well, as the old saying goes, "If at first you don't succeed, quit, quit again" Ok, poetic license, but you get my drift. ****************************** Is anyone here an E.R. fan? Wow!! last night was a shocker premiere!!! I won't go into detail about the whole show, but I will say this. Seeing a guy have his whole arm ripped off in a helicopter blade is much more graphic when you are totally unexpecting it. The special effects were something out of a multimillion dollar movie budget! Unf**king real! No other way to put it. I know anyone in the medical profession hates the show. They pick up on all the bloopers in the O.R., but I am not medically knowing enough to. I love the show. They managed to keep everyone in the cast that they had at the season finale so it looks like I will be watching another season. ****************************** I still don't have my first lesson for school yet. They supposedly mailed it out on Tuesday. I hope it comes today. I really want to get started with it. This weekend would be the perfect time. ****************************** Well, it's time to get ready for work so I will leave on that note. Remember boys and girls: When quitting smoking, never, never, never put yourself in a situation where your will power will crumble. Bad idea. Later..... Later,
Cosmic
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