Saturday, Jun. 08, 2002 9:01 P.M.
Anniversary of Sorts Not a jocular entry here. Don't proceed unless you want a serious read.
21 years ago today. My mother died. My life as I knew it ceased to exist. I was 27. Nobody should lose their mother at 27. Nobody should lose their mother ever. I have a need to speak out tonight to all those d'landers that still have their moms.
I got drunk tonight. Why? I want my mom. My mom the alcoholic. My mom, married 3 times. My mom who raised 7 kids. My mom who never said "I love you" but I knew it nontheless. My mom who died at 58 and will never again be able to offer me advise. My mom who will never again piss me off. My mom who will never tell me what it was like to be 49. My mom who may have made bad judgements still kept the family together. And my mom, who as much as I think she caused a lot of my troubles, lived with her own every day, but I was too young to know.
To all my friends in diaryland that are still fortunate enough to have their moms. Embrase them. Forgive them. Thank them. Listen to them. Cherish every waking moment you have with them. I would give anything to have mine back. I would love to be able to fight with her, to ignore her advice, to tell her so much that I wasn't able to.
Dead is forever. Call her. Tell her you love her. Tell her that whatever she did while raising you, that you understand. Please! Let her know that she is loved. Yup. I have missed her for 21 years and it never gets easier. Once she is gone it is forever.
Later,
Cosmic
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